an honest sailor's loveletter

i know what u have heard about us..

"why choose a navy as ur bf? theyre promiscuous"
Disloyal, malcontent, kaki belit. one port one wife and a lying prick.
i've heard it all

and i cant say ure wrong for i've been there

and i dont intend to defend those pricks wit this post
kaki pempuan mana2 pun ada..be it among seamen, buruh binaan, penggali kubur whatsoever

i am here to defend those who are honest in their relationship and fell victim to this stereotypical statement.

it hurts to see sum of my fellows breaking down after a failed relationship..some of them who had held on long enuff (worse case i've seen is 7 yrs)..only to see their effort for love destroyed, ditched by the shipside..hancur berkecai koyak rabak..all for nothing..

and we all know how dissapointment breeds malevolence
after countless of hopeless..lonely nights..they seek revenge

and there goes ur promiscuous navy guy..u put the label on his head without any peruse

when no one knows how much pain n suffering he's been thru
no one knows how much it costs n bleeds his soul
no one knows how much it has fleshed him alive

i'm sorry..but u guys talk too much but spoke of nothing

So hear me out now..wives and girlfriends of sailors..if u happen to be still in a relationship..

for i am speaking on behalf of a sailor who is in love with a girl

baby..,

fate can be so cruel..
for it made me found u..
at times when i'm required elsewhere..

u may not see how much it hurts
having to leave you all by yourself
knowing that u went through challenges in life
without me by your side
without me to hold you in my arms
without me to catch your tears

believe me baby..i rather be in hell than to suffer such pain

but a man has to do his job
in life there is a point where there are no turning back
and it so happened that i'm required to serve where no one else would go

baby,

being at sea, i've seen most of the beauty that the world can offer
the joy of a thousand sunrise
the calmness of countless sunsets
the pure fluffy cloud in mid-day
the starry nights where the sky is untainted
the ocean that looked like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue plain

but what made me still longs for u?
in a fair wind and following seas i wish you were here
in rough seas and bad weather i still pray for your safety on land
when the wind howls and i can't see through the fog
my heart beats your name and somehow the fear is gone

you wanna know why?

was it because i love you?
baby thats an understatement

because ever since the sail is hoisted and my ship got underway
you are sealed shut in my heart..giving me the hope to live on
and my only hope of survival..until i can come back to you once again.

so please bear with me baby
even the distance between us makes it so hard to say
it hurts but it might be the only way

the day will come when we can cherish every moment together
it is a promise i'm willing to die to keep
for the time being i shall build my life around you nonetheless
even if it is filled with pain and agony

not because for it is worth the while

because i simply cant breathe without you

- your sailor husband/bf


i dont know if this will make a difference..but at least i'm trying



pelautmulutmanis -arishamzah